“Inner prostitute.” Has it ever crossed your mind that such a thing exists inside you?
Understanding first what a “prostitute is, helps. A “prostitute,” in its typical meaning, is one who sells sex and physical body in order to get money or some type of favor. It’s a very first thing most people think when they hear the word “prostitute.” The word “whore” also comes to mind.
Well, forget the sex in the definition. Think internal, non-physical. So, when I mention “inner prostitute,” I therefore mean psychological. Even more so, spiritual. The “inner prostitute” inside each of us to some degree, is metaphorically one that “sells” a part of our selves in order to get something. This type of selling is actually “whoring” one’s integrity and self-respect, pushed by the winds of self-interest, vice or indulgence.
Maria, married to a millionaire businessman, was sure that she’s doing something against her values. Her husband has been used to bringing women in their bedroom whenever he comes home. Despite her protests, she continues to allow him to do so. According to her, she gives her consent and stays in the toxic marriage for financial security rather than courageously face the unknown. Sacrificing her self-respect for comfort, she “sells out” to her husband’s abuse rather than being true to her self.
The “inner prostitute,” as you can see, is primarily attached to issues of survival and security. It thrives on deep fears. Often, those who persistently struggle with their “inner prostitute” experienced extreme physical, psychological, and emotional abuse, deprivation, and battering during childhood or earlier years of development. In order to fill the gaps, a person giving in to his/her “inner prostitute” becomes willing to whore away his/her integrity, self-respect, and values to feel provided for, guarded, and protected.
The result? Psychopathology. Personal and relationship breakdowns. A lack of purpose and happiness. Instability in various areas of life. Identity prostituted to others, such as time, affection, heart, soul, creativity, friendship, or intellect. Telling untruths or lies to one’s self and others to have power, a sense of “security.”
Indeed, the heart is deceitful above all things. In it dwells the “inner prostitute.” Have you come to know it yourself?